Am I the only one?

Sometimes I feel like I am so fat right now that I couldn't never really look
like all of these beautiful girls in the magazines. Like I'd just have a
bunch of sagging skin or something.......

Update

Ok, so I just got off of work & it's 8:35pm & I still haven't had anything to eat today. I had a medium chia hot coffee this morning & a V8 while I was at work. My dad told me he'd have dinner ready for me when I got off work but luckly once I got here he was already asleep so I don't have to eat that. Phew!
So this is my second week of college & so far I'm loving it! I'm meant to work out after I got off work but I forgot to bring my workout clothes with me to work. I work at the gym for those of you who didn't know. It's good thinspiration....sometimes. Other times.....not so much. Haha! Just got my first car a week ago. Love it! I feel free with it. Ok, enough about me, how've you all been doing?? I missed you <3

Hey!!

Im sorry i've been MIA for a little.....again. So much has been going on in my life. Most good, some bad. I finally got a laptop today so i can be on here a lot more. I'm waiting to watch the VMAs on MTV which are gunna start any minute now so i will explain everything in my next post. Probably tomorrow. Much love to you all and i'll ttyt!! muah!

Kes...

I just wanted to say thank you very much for your kind words :) that last comment made me laugh, & I really needed it. Hahaha Thanks so much. :)

Sometimes...

I feel like I'm just a thing taking up oxygen on this stupid Earth...

Im sorry :(

I know I've been M.I.A for a while now. So since I've been gone

my parents noticed my eating habits & were getting pretty mad at me

for it. So they decided to get me on weight watchers. It worked for a

week or two, then it just stopped & I was gaining the 6lbs I'd lost

on it back. :'(

Gosh I hate my body!!!!

I think I'm going to go back to fasting again. It seems to be the only thing that works for me.

Anyways, I hope all of you girls are doing great on your plans!

STAY STRONG

I'm good

The plan was to fast till friday but yesterday I had a major binge so I messed that up. So far today all I

had was 2 sticks of gum. One of which didn't taste so good. Anyways, work today was fun & it

wore me out. I work at a day care in a gym. Kids really know how to wear a person out.

LOL

I'm getting really sick of being fat all the time. I was holding off seeing my fiance for a little

while so I could just loose a whole bunch of weight & surprise him but that didn't work.

Story of my life. That's all I want, is for people to look at me & think, "omg, can

you believe how much weight she's lost..." It'll happen soon though.

New Followers!

Thank you all!

I love that you all are here to help me & support me. I'm so sorry that I haven't been commenting on any

of your posts. My internet or something else unknown hasn't been allowing me to. :(

But I just want you all to know that I appreciate all of your inspirational words & photos.

Stay strong girls,

We Can Do This!

girls i need ur help

help me to get moitvated again! please.

I wish you could just understand how I feel

Skinny Love - Thinspo

I love it

Yesterday my plan was to not eat anything at all because of all the food I shoved

in my mouth the day before, but once again, I caved. I had my tomato soup

 (225) & a few bites of orange chicken (?). I was pretty sure that I'd

gained at least 2 pounds back, but surprisingly I lost 2 pounds!!

I had to step on the scale 3 times, just so I knew I wasn't

dreaming! Today is Monday so that means no food at

all for the day, going for my walk around the park,

& get my workout on at the gym for 45 minutes.

I wish you all luck! I've got 1 more follower!

YAY!!!!!!

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COMMENT REPLIES...

Ulla...

It seems you may have been right. hahahaha ;D



This is what I want more than anything

Binge

I was doing pretty good till yesterday. I hate tomato soup, which was planned, (225). Then went to the gym to work it off. Then I'd say at about 8pm I caved. I went to the Wendy's right down the street from where I live & got myself a burger & fries. It was a downward spiral from there, marshmallows, popcorn, chocolate, the whole shabang! Because of everything that I had yesterday, I didn't have my soup that I was going to have today. So far today I'm calorie free for the day!

I woke up this morning to another pound gone

Since May 9th, I've been getting into working out a lot more. My eating habits were terrible from then to the 17th, but I still managed to loose a few pounds. I'm sure it was just because of more exercise.

On Tuesday I had a plate of rice with some sort of beef stuff on top of it, but that was all I ate that day. I have no idea how many calories it was. Probably a shit load.

Wednesday I had nothing but an apple, then I went to the gym for about 45 minutes to work it off.

Yesterday, I had a bite of a tamale, then went to the gym for 45 minutes. 

& today all I've had to eat is one little teeny tiny tator tot. Surprisingly, I'm not really feeling that "hungry" feeling yet. But anyways, I was 155lbs on the 9th & today I'm 149lbs! I love watching that number go down. I hope it stays that way! 

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COMMENT REPLIES

Ulla...

Thank you! I'm glad that what I'm doing is helping you to be more motivated. I know what you mean about the exercise thing though. It was way hard for me to get motivated to do it. One thing that helped me though, this might sound weird, was to go out & get all new workout attire. LOL. For some reason it just made me want to get out of the house & just go! Hahaha. I'm know you will fight past that though, you can do it!

SkinnyLove...

Thank you for your support. As you can see from my post, I haven't been having very many calories at all. The tator tot is all I plan on having today, & I'm still going to go to the gym for about 45 minutes. But if I do decide it's too much for me to handle I might have a little bit of tomato soup or something but never more that 500 calories a day.

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5 lbs gone in a week & a half

"Know what you want to do, hold the thought firmly, and do every day what should be done, and every sunset will see you that much nearer the goal."
--Elbert Hubbard

Sorry I've been MIA for a little. I've really been getting into working out. I walk a mile & a half around the park in my neighborhood then right after go to the gym. I also do pilates twice a week. Yesterday I only had an apple then went to the gym to work it off. So far today all I had was a cup of coffee.

I've lost 5lbs already just since last monday!!!!

I'm pretty excited about that.

S :) G :) D :) Day 1

Today is my first day of the SGD, & so far I'm pretty proud of myself! My meals so far:
BREAKFAST---1 cup of applesauce (100)
LUNCH---------2 cups of vegetables with very little butter (90)
                           1 cup of applesauce (100)

One of the things that I do to kind of curve my appitite is kinda weird, you'd probably think I'd want to do the opposite, but I watch the Food Network Channel. My favorite show on there is Barefoot Contessa, she's so talented. Anyways, I watch it & it makes me feel full. So that's what I've been doing today. Today I'm going to Famous Footwear to get me some workout shoes!!!! Whoohoo! I'm getting either the Sketchers Shape Ups or the Reebox Easy Tone...whichever is cheaper. I go walking everyday now with my parents around the park down the street from my house. I'm loving it!! We walk for about a mile and a half. I haven't been able to go to the gym lately because the car is unlicences but it's getting licenced tomorrow so I'm going. I was looking on my gym's website last night & I was looking for workout classes. I found Zumba & Pilates classes that I could so do, so I'm going to my first pilates class on monday at 8:30pm. I'm so stoked!!

SGD

Well, I've seen lots of you girls doing this & it looks like something I could
do, so I'm gunna try it.

Thank you to all of my new followers!!!

Goal for the day

Good morning everyone! I slept about 10 hours so I'm good!

Plan for today: Sleep at least eight hours....CHECK!

Don't have any more than (500) calories..........

Drink lots of water.............................

& last but most definitely not least

workout for at least 1.5 hours..

"Blessed are those who hunger & thirst,

for they are sticking to their diets."

$*?#%!!!!

Ugh! So the plan for today was for me to fast but the food demon got
 the better of me...I had a TV dinner (400) & a shit load of cookies.
(100000000000) I hate it when that happens. I'll do better
tomorrow, I promise!!

"The greatest battle is not physical but psychological.

The demons telling us to give up when we push ourselves to

the limit can never be silenced for good.

They must always be answered by the quiet yet steady

dignity that simply refuses to give in.

Courage.

We all suffer. Keep going."

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Mondays

I LOVE Mondays!! I'm not one who likes to fast on the weekends because it's just

too hard to try & hide it while everybody is home & we're all spending time

together. Mondays, everybody is gone & out of the house before I even

wake up. This diet is much more do-able while my family is gone.

So today is my fresh start for the week. I'm so excited to

finally start this all over agian. Because I know that

the more I do this & the stronger I am, I will

finally reach my goal of

BEAUTIFULL.

S-U-M-M-E-R

As we all know, summer is approaching very fast. So I thought you'd like my thinspo,

Summer-ized!

<3

The Secret

The Secret is a book that I've been reading for the past couple days.

It talks about thinking positive thoughts & by doing this you will attract whatever you

wish to come to you. You have to picture in your mind exactly

what you want, and picture yourself being or having it.

So that's exactly what I've been doing. I've been testing out this

"Secret"

I bet you can only guess what my wish is...

DUN DU DU DUHHHHH!

SKINNY SKINNY SKINNY THOUGHTS.

I wrote down my goal weight on a piece of paper

& put it in a place where I'll see it every single day.

I've been staying positive & it's making me feel wonderful.

I keep telling myself I'm going to reach my goal weight by summer.

So I wake up this morning to check my horoscope...this is what it said:

"You are someone who would love to believe in miracles. Aquarius,

but your analytical mind often prohibits you from reaching out

to a higher force when you want or need something.

For the rest of the week and throughout the coming weekend,though,

you may enjoy a few experiences that will change your mindset.

Get ready for an excellent run of good fortune

and a few small miracles.

Hopefully you will accept and embrace what

occurs to you with an open mind

and a good dose of faith."

Is it just coincidence?? I think NOT!

This has gone on for too long

Hello! I'm sorry I haven't been here very much lately.

To tell you the truth, I feel ashamed. I've been eating like

crazy and I didn't know what to say to you guys, but I'm getting

back on the wagon. Please, help! I've fallen off too many times this month.

I'm done.

My inspiration...:)

Thanks to my new followers!! <3

Rainy Day

My weekend was pretty good, I went to the movies & partied it up at my brothers house.

I was worried about my diet getting out of hand for this week because I was supposed

to go to my friend's house but plans have changed & I get to stay home for the next

few weeks. I'm so happy about that because noone will interfear with my eating!

Or I should say...not eating. I tried the ABC diet & to tell you the truth, I can't

do a diet like that. It's much easier for me to just not eat anything. So that's

what I'm doing. Pretty much. Todays I only had a little piece of chocolate

(80) just so I could get some sugar in me. Tonight I'm going to the gym

to work it off, & then some. I need to find a job right now so I'm

thinking of walking to the little coffee shop around the corner of

my house to fill out an application. Getting out & going on a

mini walk will do me some good. It's been raining here

since I woke up so it's a good thing the coffee shop

isn't that far away. :) Hmmm, I see that I have two

more followers! Thank you for being here for

me! Even though you may not know it,

you're really helping me get through

this & through my days. You're

very much  appreciated!!

I hope you all have a

great day & thank

you for reading.

<3

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I want someone to love me, is that so much to ask??
How is that gunna happen with me looking &
acting the way that I do. I'm so fucking
shy, & to top it off, I'm a fucking
fat ass. All I ask is for
someone to just care.
please....

So, um, yeah, my life is so fucking out of order & the worst part is... noone knows. I've been thinking about my ex lately....UGH. FML (fuck my life) anyways, heres some thinspo pictures

 If only....